I just want to say thank you to those of you who have read my blog throughout this past year. I am not sure if I am going to continue it or not as I have to pay another fee to keep it running for another year. I am either going to continue a blog on another site or somehow come up with the money to keep this site running, or just keep writing on my own without doing a blog. I will always write, as this is one of the things God has given me to do, and hopefully someday I will be a published author and maybe even have a positive influence on some people’s lives due to the words that I write. I appreciate everyone’s encouragement and support. I hope that I have been able to be a blessing to someone with the words that God has given me and some of the lessons He has taught me.
It’s funny because I started this site as the first part of a ministry I wanted to have where I would have an actual place to minister to broken people of all kinds and show them that they could have the same type of redemption that I experienced in my life: a complete transformation, a beautiful metamorphosis. I thought I would have a building and a program going by now and that I would have led many addicts and other people who have become entrenched in the bondage of this world through the same transformation that I experienced. I was so excited to show others what God did for me that I wanted to immediately dive into a huge ministry bringing God’s salvation to as many people as possible. However, God is still working on my metamorphosis; He is continuing to do a beautiful work of transformation and healing in me. I won’t ever be perfect, but God will continue to do a perfect work in me, and when He tells me I am ready for the next step, that is when I will take it.
God put this dream in my heart and it is still going to happen. It is going to happen at exactly the right time, in exactly the right place, and in the way that God wants it to happen, not how I initially thought it was going to happen. God won’t give me or anyone else anything that is too big for us, and He won’t put us in a position that we are not ready for. He has been teaching me a lot throughout this year. Some of the things God has been working with me on are patience, trust, and faith. I know that zeal is a wonderful characteristic to have, but it must be tempered with patience, wisdom, trust in God’s timing and ways, and faith that the things God put in my heart will happen even if it takes a while and even if I don’t see how, when or where.
God has given me a beautiful time of resting in Him, a time to get to know who He created me to be, a time to be built up and strengthened in Him, a time to learn about how wonderful He is and how much love He has for me and for others. He has also built Ian and I up together in Him so that we have a strong foundation of love upon which many amazing things will be built. Our three fold cord must be very strong in order for us to be the mighty warriors for the Kingdom of God that we are, bringing the light into the darkness of this world.
God has given us glimpses of the ministry work that we will be doing so that we know that He is going to use us in mighty ways for His Kingdom. We need that hope and that purpose. The really cool thing is, although we thought that it was all going to happen right away, God has perfect timing and a much better plan. First He showed us the vision; now He is showing us how to work toward that vision, and also how to rest in Him and know that it will all come to pass just as He has said it would. He is giving us time and space to grow and to enjoy life and love, beauty and peace. I am so thankful for the way God works in us. He is so good. Before anything else, He just wants us to enjoy all the blessings He has given us. God truly does work for those who wait for Him, and He makes the waiting not seem like waiting at all, but just a time to be, to live, to enjoy, to love.
I am very at peace with this time in my life, but I know that when the pace starts picking up and more things start happening, I will be at peace with that as well because the Prince of Peace lives in my heart. That is the most exciting thing in life, to know that wherever I am and whatever I am doing, I am with God who loves me with a love beyond all that can be imagined. I am truly blessed and I hope that whatever happens in my life I can be a blessing to others as well.
I may not have a ministry yet or a published book, but I know that I am a living epistle of the truth of God’s love and powers of redemption. I am a walking testimony of God’s goodness, and I am so thankful for this wonderful new life He has given me. It has been almost two years now that I have been walking with God, but it will always be new. God doesn’t get stale or old or boring; He leads us ever onward into a newer and better life. We go from glory to glory and from blessing to blessing. Even the hardships we endure bring growth, strength, wisdom, and patience. Even through more difficult times He is with us working it out so that our sorrow will become joy. If we can keep our hearts and minds focused on God, we will have peace in all situations and He will continue working things out for our good and His glory.
Whether I am able to continue this website or not, I thank you for reading it for the year that it has been up. I don’t know what God is going to do in my life or in anyone else’s, but I do know that if you walk with God and put all your trust and faith in Him, He will lead you and guide you into all manner of blessings and beauty. Stay thankful and trust God and everything will be all right.
“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace.” Numbers 6:24-26