Sometimes in life we come into wide open spaces full of blessings, light and love. We may have had to climb over rocks and through tight spaces and dark valleys to get there, but when you’re walking with God, you always arrive. I am so abundantly blessed with all the love and goodness of God and the people He has put in my life. I feel like I have entered the Promised Land. I almost feel bad for being so blessed, but then when I think of all it took to get to this place, I just accept the beauty and the love and say, “Thank You God. We’ve made it.”
As I prepare for the wedding that will legally unite me with my soul mate, Ian Gray, the man that God made just for me, I am overwhelmed with the goodness of God and of the people helping us put it all together, the people who believe in us and love us. God gave me a vision and a prophesy after I met Ian, but before we were together. A pastor was praying for me and the Holy Spirit started speaking through him. He said, “Very soon you will begin doing what you were born to do, the purpose God had for you when He formed you in your mother’s womb.” He said more than that and it was beautiful, exciting, and amazing, but the really cool thing was when he said it I saw a vision of Ian and I bathed in light standing hand in hand kind of high up as if we were on an invisible platform or something (now I think we were standing together in the palm of God’s hand). Then a pink pillar of light poured out onto us from above and shone out through us in every direction like a neverending flow of love.
A day or two later God confirmed that Ian was to be my husband, and that God had indeed brought us together. God had been telling me this ever since I met Ian, but I had a lot of trouble accepting it since I was still legally married to my ex husband even though we had separated initially years before after becoming heavily entrenched in drug addiction. All the laws of man and of religion said that it was not okay for me to start over with a new man, but God kept telling me, “this is right; I brought you together for a reason.” I thought I had to give up on ever experiencing true love with a man, and I was willing to do so, but God said, “No, you need a companion, one that will love you, cherish you, support you, understand you, and walk with you through life.” And He gave me Ian.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17
God has shown me in so many ways what being a new creation means. He gave me a brand new heart, a renewed mind, a fresh start in life, and a companion of His choosing to share it all with. I never knew it was possible to experience this much love, but now I am absolutely swimming in it, and I know God gave us this great love so that we can share it with many others. It is so amazing that when I surrendered my life to God completely, I actually became new and all my past was dead and gone. I guess that is why they call it being born again; birth is the beginning of new life. Once I was born into the world, but now I have been born into the Kingdom of God.
On the day that God made it abundantly clear that He brought Ian and I together and we would be married (a little over a year ago), the day that I was finally able to accept this gift of love from God, I was sitting outside praising Him and thanking Him, and a bunch of those little dragonflies came to me and kept landing on me. God always gives me signs of His love and confirmation through His creation and I knew He was there with me. A couple months ago, Ian and I were floating down the James River on a canoe when God brought us a bunch of those little dragon flies landing on us and flying around us, and He brought with them the memory of His promise that we would be together and love each other. It was like He was saying, “What I told you would happen has come to pass; look what I do for My children.” It was like the dragonflies were a sign of that covenant and when they came back it was a reminder that the covenant had been fulfilled. God really does work in amazing and mysterious ways, and He speaks to us through everything if our ears are open to His voice.
Now as we are finally able to legally unite what God has already brought together and blessed, I am overwhelmed with His goodness and all that He has done in our lives and all that He will continue to do in us and through us. We are abundantly blessed and we have a lifetime of walking hand in hand with God ahead of us, and an eternity of love, light and beauty to look forward to. I thank God every day for exchanging the ashes of my old life for the beauty of this new one and for letting me walk with Him and dwell in His Presence.
They will come and shout for joy an the heights of Zion; they will rejoice in the bounty of the Lord–the grain, the new wine and the olive oil, the young of the flocks and herds. Their souls will be like a well-watered garden, and they will sorrow no more. Jeremiah 31:12